I’ve been at Sacramento State for almost four years, and I’m close to completing all of my graduation requirements, but somewhere deep down inside of me I have this bothersome, lingering feeling that I just don’t deserve a degree.

Oh, I’ll take it. Don’t get me wrong. I’ll grab that diploma and hold on for dear life just so that I can finally be done ?” but I know that I don’t deserve it.

I arrived at Sac State four years ago a lazy, uneducated, poor excuse for a student.

But that’s not unusual.

In fact, that’s how most teenagers arrive at universities. If everyone came to college prepared, then the idiot-proof, remedial courses offered at three out of four institutions of higher education, according to federal statistics, wouldn’t be necessary.

What’s shocking is that I’ll be allowed to leave this university a similar, if not worse version of the 17-year-old student who stumbled onto campus in 2002.

Sure, I’ve now read and written more, I’ve taken an array of upper division courses, and I’ve discovered what interests me and what I want to do after graduating.

I’ve also done the least amount of work possible for my courses, few of which have challenged me; I’ve become exceedingly lazy; I procrastinate more than ever; and I’ll still succeed in graduating from college with A’s, B’s, and a respectable student façade.

It makes me feel a little better knowing that I’m not the worst of the graduates that Sac State will spew out this May.

I complain about not being challenged enough, but many Sac State students cry about having any difficulties at all.

Sacrate.com, a Web site for students to comment on professors and their classes, is filled with comments from students even lazier than I who felt a professor was too difficult, assigned too much work, or issued a cumulative final.

Lucky for them it is completely possible to slide through Sac State without ever having a truly difficult class.

“Recently, in my senior seminar class, one of the highest possible undergraduate course for history majors, we were assigned a library search assignment,” senior history major Matthew Clifford said.

“The assignment was for students who didn’t know how to use the library. Some people had never even been. It’s ridiculous. These people almost got a degree without having ever been in the library!”

I may have done minimal coursework in my time, but at least I’ve used the library to do it! Despite the easy nature of Sac State and professors who baby students, even in upper division courses, I know that the university is not entirely to blame for my feelings of inadequacy.

I mean, who can I hold responsible for my increasing laziness but myself?

I approached my education as though it would be fed to me, and then chewed, swallowed and digested for me also.

Now that it’s almost over and I’ve barely taken part, I’m still hungry and all I’ve got is shit.