04/26/04–Have you ever met anyone who thinks that beingformally educated is overrated? These are the people who think theyare better than you because they never went to college, yet still”made it”, such as the state workers who have important-soundingtitles which basically mean “I am someone’s lackey”. These peoplewill tell you that if you’re pregnant you can tell which sex thebaby is by the position its in, believe that vitamin-B really willkeep mosquitos away, and will buy a piece of stone because they aretold Jesus touched it. I am sick of this nonsense. Sure, you mayhave read some books, maybe even spoken with intelligent people.But can you think critically? Can you decipher fact from baloney?Obviously not. At any rate, my degree will get me a lot furtherthan your astrology books.

04/25/04–I’ve begun to receive my graduation products and, ofcourse, nothing is going right. My graduation annoucements aremessed up and things have been delivered to the wrong place and/ordelayed. Now I know I am not the most patient person to begin with,but this is getting absurd. So time is running short and I have yetto become ambitious enough to pull it together. I’m moving in twoweeks, I have finals in three, and family coming in to town infour. I read somewhere once that hosting family from out of towncan be one of the most stressful things in someone’s life. That’sabsolutely true for me. Anyone want to take them off my hands?

04/23/04–You know you are getting close to the end of theschool year when you compare your level of stress with everyoneelse. “I have 3 exams, 2 papers due, and 35 hours of work thisweek.” “Oh yeah? Well I have 4 exams, 3 papers, 40 hours of work,AND I have an hour-long commute each way.”. Is it sad that this ishow my conversations go? Of course it is. If I had it to do overagain, I would brag about how much ahead of all of my schoolwork Iam.

04/22/04–I really don’t like kids. I mean, eventually I maywant to have a child — way, WAY down the road. But for the timebeing, I don’t want to see, hear, smell, or sense any children.Today was the Day in the Quad for the CSUS daycare center and I sawhundreds (ok, maybe not hundreds) of rugrats within arms reach ofmy path to class. That’s far too close. You know, they might havegotten loose and gotten their stickiness all over me. Talk aboutterrorism in America. But seriously, I’m all for the children’scenter, and I think it’s a great way for parents to be able toattend college, but please. Respect my rights. Keep it out of myline of vision.

04/20/04– I am actually writing this as a procrastination tool.I could be studying for my exam tomorrow morning, but why read thechapters when you haven’t even been to class? Ok, so I amexaggerating a little bit, but I am still way behind. I’d like tosnap out of this idle-streak, but I am having trouble finding theincentive. I open my planner and I count the days till graduation.I turn on my computer and check my email rather than write mypapers. I even clean instead of studying. Well, I guess it’s backto travelocity to check flight prices on places I’m not planning togo.

04/16/04– I am all for giving people the benefit of the doubtand accepting apologies. In fact, I think you would be quite amiserable person if you didn’t. However, is forgetting equally asimportant? In my opinion, remembering wrongs against you can helpprotect you in the long run. Sure, you can turn the other cheek,but you don’t have to bring your face closer to the person slappingyou. The case of my family is one that I have to wrestle with,coming from a herd of hill-people. But seriously, what does one dowhen confronted by a situation when forgetting will only cause moretrouble? My current situation is this: I choose to dislike acertain person that I went to high school with because he did ahorrible thing to my best friend. Is that so terrible? Am I sounjustified? I don’t wish ill on the boy, yet I am criticized forYes I know it happened several years ago. Yes I know he has”changed”. But does that mean I should associate with him orcondone those who spend time with the guy? Part of growing up islearning who to be friends with and I think that by the time wereach this point in our lives we should be pretty well able todiscern the good seeds from the bad ones.

04/14/04– I have done the math, and it turns out that I canhave four – that’s right, four – honor cords when I graduate. Onefrom CSUS and 3 from other honor societies. Will it make graduationthat much more fulfilling? When I really think about it, it doesn’tchange much of anything. I am already a member of the honorsociety, I am going to graduate with or without these cords, andI’ll save money by not buying them. But then again, people willlook at me for those two hours and know that I am officially anerd. Quite a price to pay.

04/13/04– I only had 2 classes today, but they were torture. Ialmost forgot when I had to be at school, and even forgot to set myalarm clock. It is certainly too soon to be back here. Not tomention the fact that I have completely given up on school. Thereare still 6 weeks of school left, including finals, but as far asI’m concerned I am done. A girl in one of my classes today washypothesizing that if she didn’t come to any more classes for therest of the semester, aside from test days, she would still be ableto pass. I’m going to have to go to class because I won’t otherwiselearn anything. I’ve been able to justify my lack of motivation;I’m getting ready to move, I need to do laundry and all I careabout at this point is passing. C’s get degrees!